OOPS, I ECLIPSED MY OLD SELF (THE DAY OF MY DEBUT ALBUM RELEASE)
It is official y'all…my album ECLIPSE is officially available to stream everywhere!!!
Birthing art of this caliber into the world is such a…strange experience. It's muuuuch different than merely posting something on social media. It feels a lot bigger, more expansive, and also more terrifying.
This body of work, these words and these melodies have been churning inside of me for over a year now (and really since I was a very young girl recording myself doing covers of Taylor Swift and Miley Cyrus in my bubblegum pink bedroom) and I am delighted to share it with you all. And also really fucking intimidated, unsure, and afraid.
I want people to love my work. In fact, I want millions and millions of people to be touched by my songs and my poetry. This is not some small feat. I really am in this for the long haul. This is my life's work. I would die for it. Yes I am that insane. 😂
Years ago when I was living at home in Kansas, during one of the most painful times in my life…before I even knew what I wanted to do with my life or what was possible for me, I had a very clear, reoccurring vision of myself.
In this vision, I was on a stage. Wearing a black blazer. And there was thousands of people in the crowd, listening to my words. That's all I got.
What exactly I was doing on that stage always felt unclear and sort of fragmented to me…I figured I would be a motivational speaker of some sort. Figured I would be teaching women how to heal from trauma and abuse in a more…professional, or appropriate way. Like Mel Robbins or some shit.
I don't know.
All I knew was that it was my destiny to be on a stage. I knew this so strongly that I kept chasing it…even when I had no idea where it would lead me. And lead me it did. It has dragged me to hell and back…in fact.
Our destiny does this. It destroys everything that we think we need and should be. It completely obliterates our ideas of ourselves and what is possible for our lives…it tells us to dare to dream bigger and wider. It murders our petty desires, and brings us face to face with our fear, our self doubt, the ways we hang onto our limitations and victim stories for dear life.
The visions we have for ourselves are always really fucking minuscule compared to what God has up Her/His/Their sleeve.
When we say we want something it's like life is like oh yeah? How bad do you actually want it though? What are you willing to give up? How far will you go, how brave will you be? How much faith will you practice? How much trust in God can you summon?
Now I am much beyond wearing a black pantsuit, I'm wearing black fucking leather and combat boots as a rock and roll singer. Never could have pictured this. And tomorrow I play at one of the most iconic music venues in the world…Whisky a Go Go (if you are in LA, get your tickets at the link in bio I would absolutely LOVE to meet and hug and kiss your face!!!)
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The point is this.
If you have a dream, you owe it to yourself to fucking go for it.
You owe it to yourself to try and try and try again.
You owe it to yourself to never. give. up and to just. keep. going.
AND…YOU OWE IT TO YOURSELF TO GO. ALL. THE. WAY.
Just like our pal the late great madman poet Charles Bukowski said…
“If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don't even start...”
And I believe that courage is built in the moments where you are afraid, exhausted, unsure, timid, uncertain…where there is no foundation below you and nothing to hold onto for safety and security around you…
and you still dare to keep going.
I will never stop making music or writing poetry that wakes people up to God within them, within us all.
So with that being said,
Thank you for being here.
I want to connect with each of you more.
Email me what your favorite song on ECLIPSE is.
Email me what dream you are daring to believe in.
We are in this together, for the future of humanity and for the sake of art healing us all.
I love you,
Xx
Emma